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It doesn’t really looked too ‘Super’ though @@

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I met you tonight once more, after close to 2 years not seeing you at all. My first reaction when I saw you walking through that door was ‘Oh shit, you have got to be kidding me’, but there you were, standing with the rest of them. We weren’t in contact for that 2 years, except for that one time when I asked that really stupid question of you. But other than that there wasn’t any contact for close to two years and I have got to admit, seeing you once more was awkward. And I slump into my ‘please don’t notice me cause I don’t know how should I act’ program and that eventually turned into ‘oh you noticed, self denial protocol initiated, Alan will ignore you today’.

And I am not happy for it. I didn’t wanted it. But I didn’t know what to do about it.

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~I remember this was taken on my way back from sending you home 2 years ago. Later that night you broke up with me~

But still it was nice seeing you again.

You know that tingly feeling you have within yourself when you met your ex, knowing that he/she is seeing someone else right now. I had it in abundance this night. Things didn’t work out between us last time. And things might remain how it was like tonight for a long time to come.

But in my mind, I’m really happy (I’m lying partially) to see that you have met with a better person. I’m happy to see that you have found your own happiness (Still lying partially- I just had to be honest). I hope that he can treat you as how you will wish to be treated (At least I’m telling the truth here, you should be treasured). And you also need to keep believing in your own happiness.

I never really talk about us much to anyone else. And after all this time I’ve been trying to let go of that part of you within me. Because it makes me unable to love anyone else fully. But I guess I’m wrong. Why should I let you go. What we had was special, and so it should be there, even though things didn’t work out. After all, memories shouldn’t be kept hidden. It should be cherished. That is why I’m acknowledging you here.

There is one last thing I really want to tell you though. (Don’t worry, its not another ‘ I’m the Alan~~’ post.)

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~This was taken when we were at Johor for Alvin and Janice’s wedding~

Thank you, for being the one for me, even though it was short. Thank you, for keeping me company for those few months. Thank you, for teaching me about God. Thank you, for all the cares you have given. Thank you, for putting up with me when I hurt you. Thank you, for that second chance. Thank you, for teaching me how to love. Thank you, for all that you have given me.

And the final ‘Thank you’ will be.

Thank you, Nat, for loving me once, for being my first love.

~It has become a norm for me to dedicate song’s that I’ve learnt to people who matters to me. This will be your song. Its translated as ‘Thank you takes on a deeper meaning’. Original song here~

I’m quite sure you would not be seeing these ‘Thank you’ since the cowardly me decided that it is totally unnecessary for you to see it. But if you ever found out about this, then it’d be great. At least I’ve done what I wanted to do ^^.

The Boy Who Cried Wolf, illustrated by Milo Wi...

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I’m quite sure many of you would have heard of this Aesop’s fairy tale before

The Boy Who Cried Wolf

There once was a shepherd boy who was bored as he sat on the hillside watching the village sheep. To amuse himself he took a great breath and sang out, “Wolf! Wolf! The Wolf is chasing the sheep!”

The villagers came running up the hill to help the boy drive the wolf away. But when they arrived at the top of the hill, they found no wolf. The boy laughed at the sight of their angry faces.

“Don’t cry ‘wolf’, shepherd boy,” said the villagers, “when there’s no wolf!” They went grumbling back down the hill.

Later, the boy sang out again, “Wolf! Wolf! The wolf is chasing the sheep!” To his naughty delight, he watched the villagers run up the hill to help him drive the wolf away.

When the villagers saw no wolf they sternly said, “Save your frightened song for when there is really something wrong! Don’t cry ‘wolf’ when there is NO wolf!”

But the boy just grinned and watched them go grumbling down the hill once more.

Later, he saw a REAL wolf prowling about his flock. Alarmed, he leaped to his feet and sang out as loudly as he could, “Wolf! Wolf!”

But the villagers thought he was trying to fool them again, and so they didn’t come.

At sunset, everyone wondered why the shepherd boy hadn’t returned to the village with their sheep. They went up the hill to find the boy. They found him weeping.

“There really was a wolf here! The flock has scattered! I cried out, “Wolf!” Why didn’t you come?”

An old man tried to comfort the boy as they walked back to the village.

“We’ll help you look for the lost sheep in the morning,” he said, putting his arm around the youth, “Nobody believes a liar…even when he is telling the truth!”

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The moral of this story is: Never tell lies. (Or whatever other moral values you perceive it to have)

Perhaps its cause the writer wrote it intending to teach that moral value to those reading it. But after thinking about it recently, I guess the reader might be able to perceive another side of the story.

He cried out because he was lonely, insecure and he did what he could to stop himself from feeling insecure. He wanted attention and he did what he could to get it. But those around him got a bit annoyed by his needs of attention. And when the wolf comes (I perceived as troubles), he cried the harder. But the previous securities whom he expects to come to his aid, didn’t help him at all.

I read the story and found a pitiful lonely boy.

But when you think about it, aren’t we quite similar to the boy who cried ‘Wolf’? Take away the things which make us feel secure. Take away the friends we are so bonded up with. Take away the partners we are living our lives with. Take away our internet connections and our mobile phones. Take away our wardrobe, our shoes, our fancy bags. Take away our pride and take away the fake-us we normally portray to others.

Underneath all those securities we hold on to, we will find the same boy who cries ‘Wolf’.

Don’t you think so?

But the most important thing is realize though is that, have you discovered the one ‘Old Man’ who’ll help you look for the lost sheep?

Think about it.

I have to let myself settle down first before typing out this post. Because what I’m about to share really got me ‘emo’. Will be trying my best to share with you what I’m experiencing right now.

I wonder if you had come across this video clip on Youtube or on Facebook. Do have a look at it.

I’m not really good in Mandarin so I might not understand the whole story but I reckon I know enough to know what’s happening.

Anyway. I’m touched by her courage and her life-story. Even her outlook on life is touching. Life treats her unfairly, but she still managed to look on the brighter side of life. She believes she will have happiness. I wonder how many of us actually believes we will find true happiness, from the bottom of our hearts. We often give up and feel undetermined by the tiniest things, but this ‘young-looking’ girl reminds us that there are a lot more things in life to feel grateful for. To keep on looking forward with your head held high no matter what befalls us.

Thank you for teaching me something about life today.

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Or should say Alan ‘was’ in a relationship.

At least for one hour or so.

I changed something in my Facebook account. From ‘single’ to

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Well since people might notice that it’s a particular ‘day’ and I changed the relationship status, we need something to further strengthen that ‘changed relationship status’. So I left this comment to myself.

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In the end, I gotten a lot of comments. Some congratulating me, some being super curious. [And some definitely super angry and pissed off after this]

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For the congratulations, thanks a lot for being happy for me, although it was just a one day relationship, I’m happy to know that they are a lot of people who are happy for me as well.

For the super curious, sorry for playing around with your curiosity. Alan most probably won’t be able to find a girlfriend any time soon for quite obvious [and perhaps quite unobvious reasons].

For the super angry and super pissed, I’m very sorry. But since it’s April Fools, I hope you don’t mind. Hmmm I’ll let you all be the first to know if I really do managed to get into a relationship after this 🙂

So come 2nd of April 2010, I’ll be back to ‘single’

[Actually I feel so bad that, I’d changed my status back to ‘single’ after one hour]

[Dear Michelle, I’m so sorry to disappoint you. I heard that you were really happy after reading that status update.So sorry. I’ll definitely tell you first if I gotten into a relationship]

[Dear YeeWuen, sorry for cheating you. Thanks for being a good junior. I didn’t expected that message from you]

[Dear Miss Mermaid, are you still curious?]

Here’s a few of the kepo (translated- people who wants to know about other people’s stuff) messages:

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MSN

Facebook

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And eventually, someone from my MSN decided to follow in suit

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It’s contagious, this joke~~

Anyway. Happy April Fools.

And as JJ and Ian (from Hitz.fm morning crew) would say: GOTCHAAAAA!!!