~minors n’ MAJORS~

Will I be able to see the end of this particular chapter of my life? There are so many chapters out there which has it’s own journey. Ultimately all of it could lead to happiness but whether they lead to the happiness one desired or not is still uncertain.

Have you ever watched a movie where at the end, the people were crying because they lost something special to them? That shows that the particular journey didn’t really work out well for them.

Want to know what will happen if you find true happiness after all the hardships you face? You’ll cry as well. Cry not because you’re sad, but because you finally achieve that one thing you set out to do. After all the hardships you have gone true, you break down and cry just because… you have done it.

Can you imagine that type of happiness?

Perhaps its easy for us to imagine it but do we actually feel that particular happiness at the end of a journey? Or normally when we reach the end, we forgot to look back at all that has happened on our journey there. Take this moment and look back at all that has happened. Now… Are you happy you got here? If you are not, do something about it

And still I wonder. Will I be able to see this to the end?

I remembered having lots of these kampua mee back in Labuan, especially after mass every Sunday morning. And how I missed those taste. Recently after reading Cibol’s blog at link, me and my labmates decided to go and try out this particular kampua mee.

And thus we set off for Bandar Puteri Puchong on one Wednesday afternoon for lunch.

It was a bit hard to find even though we followed the directions and the map written on the blog as quoted

The place, is located at Japan Puteri 7/11, Bandar Puteri, Puchong. It’s located nearby the hospital, so before the hospital you turn in then you can see a lot of shophouses there. (Cibol)

We nearly gave up after searching for a while since we couldn’t find it but after a few thought we finally realized what was wrong. We came from the opposite direction, from the LDP highway and hence we have to go to the turning after the hospital instead.

And luckily since I had also save the location on my GPS, we finally managed to find the shop.

So the coordinates for this place is

To go There : Let me give you kampua cravers the coordinate: N03° 1.467′ E101° 37.441′ (Cibol)

The food?

~Kampua~

This is as original as it can get here especially when you are so far away from Sarawak. Large bowl cost RM4.50 while smaller ones are at RM4.00.

The uncle there is a Sibu guy who actually shipped the ingredients and mee all the way from Sarawak.

And come September, he said that he will be making the noodles here instead to give a fresher feel to the noodles. So I’ll definitely be anticipating that. He also mention that he will be opening up branches elsewhere… Fingers crossed for Serdang as well

The stall also sell other Sarawakian food like Laksa Sarawak which is also not bad.

~Laksa Sarawak~

And here’s a photo of the food stall.

The uncle’s show is one of the stalls in this cafe. He’s the only one selling Sarawakian noodles and the kampua mee is written as Kan Pan mee or something. So Sarawakians, do visit this place for a taste of home. Haha. Enjoy.

I’ll pray for the health of Father O.C.

I’ll pray for those who are homesick to feel more belonged here…

And I’ll pray that may someone don’t be too cold towards me…

And I’ll pray that tomorrow be a happier day for all of us…

That’s what I’ll pray…

Just wanted to let certain things in my mind out… Though I really doubt expressing prayers aloud don’t increase the chances of it coming true. But I guess  that where faith comes in…

I’m quite sure many of us live a 2-faced life. Being good on the surface but being evil beneath that. Or the rarer, being evil on the surface but is good and kind on the insides. And sometimes both good and evil surfaces at the same time. I would like to think of those times as the time when you are contemplating to do something good or bad. These time ranges from the serious moments to the mundane moments.

I too have those moments. A rare few knows how evil I really could be on the insides. Sometimes I felt as if I’m wearing a mask on the surface. Regardless of how good I may try to be, it can’t completely shun out the evil side of me. Hence when no one else is looking, the evil side of me surfaces.

There are times where the good side manage to prevails. But there will also be times when all good seems to have vanished. I’ll have to say sorry to all those people who seen the dark part of me.

But recently, for an ultimate goal, I’m trying to persist in being Jekyll and resist from turning into Hyde. I know it’s like trying to make a deal with God to gain a favor. But I really don’t know how else to achieve the goal without killing the bad side of me. Hope He will understand.

I’ve been having little sleep these few days. Its cause is a feeling of uncertainty on what might and might not happen. And it’s really is that serious till the point where I can’t feel relaxed enough to get a good rest even though I’ve been sleeping very little.

Of course, a way to overcome this will be to clear the uncertainty and ask for what’s certain. But I don’t want that either. Because what’s certain may not be what I want to hear. Just call me the guy who can’t face the facts because he believes that things do happen regardless of what others say.

But this belief comes with a great deal of perseverance. Can I hold on? Can I accept the unwanted truth? Will the truth that I want happens in the end? If so, when will it finally happen? Life is so full of mysteries…

I remembered seeing the undergraduates going home a few months back and it’s hard to imagine that they will be around again starting next week. And the faculty will become once more a noisy place. Sometimes looking at their carefree faces made me wonder if I could return to those days. Days when all I have to worry about are attending classes and exams. I guess a lot of things end when you graduate. There are no longer those moments when I can just sit somewhere in the faculty and chit chat with friends for hours while waiting for class to begin. Gone will be the times when I sat and slept at the library while studying for the papers. Haha… I seemed to miss those times.

And its hard for me to wonder why some undergraduates are so reluctant to return back to their campuses after the holiday. Browse through a few junior’s blogs and all they seem to talk about is OMG… I DON’T WANNA GO BACK (exception for NanaLana who seemed to be excited though). You had your fair share of holidays at home. What’s wrong with spending another few months here and then after your finals return home again. Haha. I can’t seemed to understand them. Maybe they are still young, naive and immature .

But still, university life is just once in a lifetime. After you graduate you won’t be able to return to it. Even if you do (like I did), nothing will be the same. So quit the homesickness and live life to the fullest, wherever you are. Or you may find yourself hoping to go back to that part of your life which you missed cause you are homesick.

How do you choose a leader?

Can anyone answer that?

Does it normally take courage for someone to be a leader?

Or people are just naturally born a good leader or a terrible leader?

Last Wednesday I attended an AGM. It was for the Graduate Students Club of FPSK, UPM. Now, my past experience with AGM don’t seem to be a good one. Everytime I attended an AGM there will surely be something in store for me somewhere. I remembered the Photography Club in Secondary School I was in the committee. The Petanque Club also was vice-president. And there was that time in Red Crescent Society, a president. I was class monitor for 5 years straight out of…  5 years there… And then onto Matriculation where I spent a good time relaxing.

And then come university time, CSSUPM AGM, president… Biomedical Club UPM, committee member… Biomedical Annual Dinner 2006, treasurer… And then even after finishing my undergraduate life, I was also almost nominated for post in the recent CSSUPM AGM again… –.-‘’.. And then subsequently became the auditor for the current batch of CSSUPM exco.

But the one which took the surprise cake was the AGM last Wednesday. I attended the AGM cause I thought I should just pop up and see what goes on in the club and all. I also had the notion to skip the AGM due to my history with AGMs but in the end I went.

And guess who is the new President of the Graduate Students Club? –.-‘’

It’s the same instance as how I got elected during the past CSSUPM AGM. Emcee announce that we can start nominating… And Annie’s hand shot up into the air and she said ‘I nominate Alan Tan’… First name on the board some more. This time it was Darren’s (labmate) hand which shot up into the air. And after the vote was cast, everything was done… And what left is me standing there… A bit confused and a bit… err… irritated.

I didn’t do much for most of the post I held before this. Came under criticism a few times some more. And yet I’m at that spot once more. How do they choose someone to be a leader?

I always felt more comfortable being freelance. Helping out wherever I can but not being bounded by responsibility. And now I have that responsibility once more. I mean… Shouldn’t we choose someone who enjoy doing the job instead?

Shouldn’t we?

Recently the setbacks to my project have let me unmotivated and a bit down. I knew life as a post-graduate isn’t easy but I never expected it to be this frustrating. I was on my lowest a few weeks back when nothing seemed to move. Everything was stuck. I was moody and everything seemed to have gone wrong.

My supervisor had set up a time limit. If there is still no progress by then, I’ll be moving on to plan B. Plan B is to start anew. I’ve been working on my project for a year now. And to start anew feels like I’ve wasted some time. On the other hand, starting anew may just be the only way to get my motivation back.

So I decided to look upon the plan of starting anew. I set up a meeting with my supervisor yesterday. And asked her about the prospect and also plans for the new project. And would you know it. I like it. She even gave me an alternative Plan C which I could work upon. So currently I can consider either to take Plan B or Plan C.

I’ve rarely felt the burden of the post-graduate life being lifted off but it did ease a little after knowing the choices I had. I thought about it for sometime and thanks to Tina (she really supported me btw), I made an all-win decision. To do what I can for my project first and if its stuck, move to Plan B or C and when Plan A becomes unstuck, proceed with it. Sounds a bit farfetched so God please help me.