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I haven’t been shooting for a long time (since March 2012). This time last year I would have joined on the bandwagon and go for event such as Floria 2012, Bon Odori 2012 to shoot them but I just can’t find the passion to shoot recently. I guess its because of one incident which happened in March this year.

My house was broken into!!

And they took all but one of my lens. I lost a Tamron 17-50mm f/2.8, Tokina 11-16mm f/2.8, Tamron 70-200mm f/2.8, Tamron 90mm f/2.8, a Lensbaby Composer and a couple of expensive filters.

They also took 4 of my hard disk which contained most of my documents, photos, things that I have collected for the past few years. Yeah… All the photos I took since 2006 is gone.

I was in a slump. It was a hard time to get by. I couldn’t believe that it was all gone. Cost-wise I guess I would have lost close to RM6000 that day alone. And it was after coming back from the CSS camp. Luckily I had my camera and my laptop out with me that day. If not the loss would have been even more painful.

Since then, I felt that the passion was no longer there, especially when others ask me to shoot photos. I still shoot every now and then but I can rarely find the joy of shooting anymore. I even gotten into a bad relationship with someone the day I lost my stuff because someone insisted I removed the photos of him from Facebook (acting like a child seriously @@). I gotten a phobia of leaving anything valuable alone now, and I bring my stuff everywhere I go to. I can’t imagine losing my laptop (with all my project data in it) or anything else. I got demotivated to do a lot of things (even my project) for a long while.

I’ve not told many about this, only those close to me. I had hopes getting the items back but still reality is that, this is Malaysia, you don’t really get back what you lost to thieves (which itself is a sad case). I also pray that nothing worse will come out of this bad experience.

Anyway. I have decided to type this here because a few days ago, while updating the previous post, I looked through the photos I took of Dogathon 2011, and most of them were good and it made me reminiscence the time I use to shoot. That when I told myself that I need to recover. I need to somehow get back into it again. Perhaps I have mourned long enough. So you might see some more photos from me in the future (hopefully).

I’m really thankful for the support I gotten in my time of slump though. There are people who were really understanding and I thank them for that :). I have also learned to be more careful I guess in leaving my stuff (although I still have the tendency to leave things everywhere) and am currently looking for a new place to move into (with possibly better security).

Meanwhile, here’s one of the photos I took during my slump (it was a CSS event and it was kinda hard to say no to shooting a CSS event)

It’s when I get photos like this that make me treasure photography more 🙂

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I was part of the Compassion Walk team who ‘walked’ in downtown KL, on the 12th of March 2011 (3.30pm to 4.30pm), to spread awareness that there were still people in need of love and compassion. And these people are the addicts, the alcoholics, the HIV positives, and those with AIDS.Page 2

~Roughly 350 youths walking to downtown KL.~

Some people today seemed to be unable to accept and to love these people who are living amidst them. They have prejudice towards these people just because they are ‘problematic’ and different. And they’ll have nothing to do with these people.

And I would say part of our objective is to make them aware that these people are still human, not much different from who we are. They are capable of feeling hurt, unwanted, lonely, and depressed. DSC_0175-horz

The mission was simple, to put on the shirt, and ask people to HUG us. But the message to me, to the youth who followed the walk… was a powerful one. For to put on the shirt was to admit that, I am an addict, I am HIV-positive, I have AIDS, or I am an alcoholic. We, who donned the shirt, was to be in the position of these people. I’d approached total strangers, said this to them: ‘I am an addict, can you give me a hug?’’ and wait for them to give me that hug.

And for much of the time, they just walked away. And it struck me. The people we are portraying were experiencing the same thing. People shunned them off/despise them/avoid them because they are different. How would you feel if no one were to love you, to care for you, to show compassion to you? How would you feel if you approached someone for help and that person just walked away, much like how many of those whom we approached that afternoon did?

I’ve learnt (first-hand) that afternoon that the world could really use more love and compassion. I’ve learnt that I can no longer feel indifferent towards the sufferings of other people. There are tonnes of other people in need of help out there, the people we have portrayed, the homeless, the orphans but what have we done to help them.

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~Preparing food and drinks, feeding the poor and homeless~

I gave food to the homeless earlier that day, watch them eat and listened to their stories of how they lived each day taking one step at a time. And their day can be a blessing or a curse for them, depending on how that day turned out. They might be having a warm night sleep by the roadside or they could be soaking wet when it rains. Yet, I realized they are as human as the rest of us. They have parents, siblings and friends. They still have hope and dreams for a better life. Some managed to maintain their dignity by which they really didn’t like to be termed ‘homeless’ or to be found scraping food and materials out of trash. They didn’t like to feel ‘sympathy’ from others because of their dignity and yet they don’t have a choice most of the time. Sometimes they were even taken advantage of, when their employers refused to pay them for the work they’ve done. The world that they lived in was a world that I could have never imagine being in. And yet they are still optimistic about their life. The homeless guy my group talked with was cheerful and even sang bits of songs for us.

Some of the participants from my group did a short sharing session a week after the ‘Walk’ and the facilitator mentioned that they had visited these the HIV-positive/AIDS patients in the hospitals and some of these patients were actually reluctant to talk with them. It was as if they had accepted the reality that they will be shunned by society and that to me is just a sad case.

I think its really about time we start to accept these people for who they are and to welcome them into society with open arms. To show them the love and compassion they seek. Because the world could use more of it.

Will you be making a difference this lent?

*Someone gave me a couple of topics to write upon and I chose this out of a list of other interesting topics… mainly because I’m at the age where all the people I know either had tied the knot or will soon to do so in the near future.*

I had a couple of friends who tied the knot in 2010. And I’ll most probably have another couple of friends doing so this year. I was asked… not once but twice about my relationship status (which is still very much ‘SINGLE’ btw) by my aunts and uncles while I was back in my hometown for Chinese New Year. The prospect of getting into a relationship, to go ‘steady’ for a couple of years and later propose had been something which had been playing around in my head for the past year or so…

As a Malaysian ‘Chinese’, I will think that my wedding will definitely be following a standard protocol.

It ‘might’ start off with me visiting the girl’s house with some of my ‘brothers’.

And we’ll be stopped by the girl’s ‘sisters’

And forced to do all sorts of things (which most probably involve something you’ll see in the eating games of Fear Factor)

Except I won’t be getting the prize money. Instead I’ll be getting  life-long love, perhaps? (AMEN)

Next when I finally pass the Fear Factor challenge, there will be a lot of kissing and photography involve.

At this point I’ll most probably be wishing I was the one taking the photos ^^

After that we will go to the tea ceremony which duration of time is proportional to the amount of relatives you have. And for my case it should be pretty LONG.

Finally we should be heading to the church (I guess either before everything begins or at this time). And there will be the wedding mass. And lovely flower girls. And perhaps some finger foods after that.

After this, the photographers will most probably want to take more shots of us (And once more I hope to be jumping in with the photographers as well).

And then fast-forward to the night, where there’s gonna be a dinner reception. (By which the dinner hall will be determined by how rich/well-known/capable the family is *SHUDDERS*)

And I’ll meet with A LOT of people I never knew existed. (Who’s that again?! That’s the daughter of your uncle’s wife second sister. @.@)

I’ll spend time shaking hands with a lot of people whom some I’ll most probably won’t be seeing after that.

And then, there will be performances, perhaps a few singers if I know them.

A belly dancer or two?

And we go on stage, cut the cake, pour the wine, give a toast, give a speech, kiss and thank everyone.

And finally perhaps, some rest and relaxation at the end of day.

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But that won’t be my idea wedding if I can help it.

I’ll still follow the Chinese traditions of serving tea and so on… I definitely would like to have the exchange of vows as well. Perhaps overlooking the beach or something ^^ or at some small lovely chapel somewhere, attended by close relatives and loved ones. Yeah, note that I said by close relatives and loved ones.

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I always think of wedding as an occasion to celebrate the togetherness of two persons. But the trend of wedding nowadays have gotten very extreme. The Chinese way, being big dinners, performances, and a lot of ‘strangers’ who are really friends on your dad and mums and in-laws. However, thats not what I envision a wedding is suppose to be.

All I really want will be a memorable occasion, made memorable by those whom I hold close to me, and not by the people whom I barely know or the amount of people attended. And yeah, you might argue its a once in a lifetime occasion, but I would like to think of it as walking down the aisle daily, with the one I love. It’s not once in a lifetime but rather every day of your life. And its not the wedding day that is important but rather the days and years after it.

I have intended to write a lot more when I was first asked the question. But right now, I really do think that one word sums up what my ideal wedding will be: SIMPLE.

Of course, my turn at marriage will still be a long way. ^^.  And since we’re on this topic, here’s a lovely song about it.

 

 

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CSSUPM organized a trip to the Ruman Keluarga Kami orphanage home in Kajang a few days ago. They organized a Christmas party for the kids which was filled with sing-alongs, games, food and entertainment for the kids. Its good to remember that Christmas is a time of giving and to those orphans, giving the gift of love would certainly mean so much to them. Most of us are fortunate enough to have a family to spend Christmas with but we often forget about the less fortunate people out there especially people who would be grateful wholeheartedly to have someone to remember them by especially during the festive seasons. The kids there are very polite and lovely. Its hard to imagine what they have gone through before this.

I wasn’t really in the festive mood throughout December but I’m glad to have finally contributed something even though the Christmas season has already past. Perhaps it wasn’t really a bad Christmas 2010 after all.

Merry Belated Christmas everyone.

 

First off, Happy New Year to all. I haven’t been updating for a long long while partially because I was very caught up with my work and dedications.

It’s the time of the year when I look back at 2010 and noted out some of the things which clearly  made my year (either great or miserable).

1. Someone broke into by car and stole the car battery

I still have no idea how someone could open up a locked car hood and took out the battery.

 

2. Became an avid photographer covering certain events and functions (such as), and getting some good shots off people as well.

1. CSSUPM Annual Dinner 2010.

Had a great time with great retro dressing models.

2. Now I See Spiritual Revival Concert 2010.

I wasn’t an official photographer for the event but since anyone can basically just go up front to take photos, I just went ahead. Anyway. Shot for 2 concerts, first one was in New Era College Kajang, and the second at a University in Sunway.

3. Staged photoshoots.

Managed to ask Joanne & Leo, Fang Wen and Shirley & Ezone to model for me. I still feel that the photos are lacking a lot though. Need more practice.

4. Desmine and Melissa’s Wedding

My first ever Wedding photoshoot. And I didn’t do quite well. Hmmm. But they are a loving couple. Apparently starting a family soon ^^.

5. UPM Dogathon 2010

Once again, not an official photographer. But I reckon I got some great shots that day.

6. CSSUPM Annual Camp 2010

Camp 248

I realized I didn’t blog about this since I was on a break. Regardless I had a fun, great and emotional time at Port Dickson.

7. Chinese Opera Charity Concert

Actresses and Daniel

This was a charity event so I wasn’t paid for it (nor I was for most of the events). But still enjoy taking photos of the actors and mostly actresses on stage. Also didn’t blog about this but most of the photos can be found on my Facebook.

8. Alex and KaeChing’s Wedding.

Kae Ching and Alex

Was a guest but that didn’t keep Esme (my camera) away. They finally tie the knot after… 7-8 years?? And they will surely have many more years to look forward to.

9. CSSUPM Freshies Day.

Dance 1

Welcoming the lovely juniors to the family away from home.

10. English Language Dinner

Group 24

Was called to shoot this event. More photos on Facebook. Though I think I was paid for this. Since the dinner was free for me ^^.

11. Some random shots of people around me

Chapel Milo Party 13

Nova might kill me for this. But its a lovely very descriptive shot.

12. Macro photography.Bee 1Bee

Loving the Tamron 90mm lens I have right now.

3. Met Karen Kong during Alex and KaeChing’s wedding.

I’m a fan for hers though not so recently. But I do like some of her songs. Did managed to get a couple of photos of her.

Karen Kong on stage 3

4. Won a few tickets online for miscellaneous events.

Ticket 1

Tickets to Moto GP UK from Air Asia, which I didn’t go because it was in the UK. And they gave me the tickets 1 week before the event.

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Ticket 7

NTV7 Star Live Concert 2010 tickets from DailyChilli.com which I gave to Sally.

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I did won tickets to Alice in Wonderland special screening though… I misplace the photo but I gave the tickets to TJF and Wei Keat. That particular screening was pretty harsh on my wallet though cause even though I got the tickets for free… I was fined for speeding on my way back from the cinema TT.

5. Got my photo published in a magazine.

I remember I intended to get a photo out in a magazine during my 2010 resolutions which I made in 2009. And in November 2010, I got my first photo out in the Digital SLR Magazine Malaysia October 2010 issue. I submitted the photo in September and I was very disappointed when it didn’t come out in the September issue but was really shocked when I saw it in the October issue. Won a memory card as well. Hurray for me.

6. Took care of a CAT for a whole month.

Smokey 5

Smokey isn’t mine. She’s Sandy’s cat but Sandy is having her break so I offer to take care of her. And she is one timid cat. Enjoy my time scaring her all over the place. She’s going back to Sandy soon though. I might miss her. But she’s better off with Sandy since I found out that I can be quite a bully Smile with tongue out

7. Lost some weight.

I have no proof of this yet though since I haven’t weight myself for sometime. But since most of my jeans are a lot looser than they was, I guess I should have lost a few kgs. But definitely didn’t reach my target of 65kg. Perhaps somewhere within 70kg to 75kg. I’ll keep trying the coming year.

8. Cried my eyes out during the CSSUPM Annual Camp.

Camp 186 (captioned)

I did mention that it was emotional but you would never guess how emotional it was for me. Perhaps only the few who sat beside me knew what had happened. But it got me to change some parts of me though I guess. Some parts of the evil me still remain but I’ll slowly take care of that.

9. Travelled all over Malaysia.

I went to Malacca, Johor, Penang, Kedah, Pangkor, Perak and also went back Labuan for a few weeks. Didn’t managed to go outside Malaysia though like in 2009 when I went Taiwan. But AirAsia is already flying to South Korea and also New Zealand next year. These destinations are really tempting me. Maybe I will really fly to this places in 2011.

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Went to AIMST university in Kedah when my sister enrolled there.

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Got attacked by monkeys and leeches during my trip to Pangkor. It was funny though.

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Went to Malacca with CharYong to meet up with FangWen for her photoshoot.

 

10. And finally… Made a decision to get my doctorate by 2013.

I have to graduate by then. Seriously I have to!!! Working hard on it now. Progress this year had been better than the past years but its still a long way to go and I still can’t see the end of the road. But I’ll keep walking… And I have to go on a faster pace as well. Lets do it!!!

 

I hope your 2010 was as eventful as mine ^^