Have I changed??
I remember last time if I really wanted to acheieve something, I would give it my all… Be persistent… Doing crazy things everyday just to acheive it… Now… There is something I want to acheive… But then… Everytime something bad happens on my way towards acheiving it… The thought of giving up is there… Its as if I rather give up on it than to be persistent once more… Did I lost my passion for it?? Have I changed??
Incomplete…
Feeling incomplete today… As if something is wrong somewhere… Or just a feeling of restlessness inside of me… It even persist throughout the mass today… Feeling not too good… Haiz… Sien… Maybe its because I broke my fast today…
And my attempt to do something crazy didn’t happen when the readings at mass got a bit mixed up…
Went to chapel like any other old day… But found out that there wasn’t a psalmist half an hour before mass start… So I played with the idea of getting a tune for the psalm… And believe it or not… I got the tune done in half an hour and was practicing it when Fr Chris arrived… I thought I was ready to go on this week for psalms as well… But then… The mix up in the readings got me wondering whether the psalm I was doing was the right one… or not…? So in the end… The psalm didn’t happen… A bit gloomy though 
And I went to sleep…
Feeling a bit incomplete today…
Well lets just say that things don’t really happen how we hope for it to happen at times…
We all wish for happy things to happen… But when they didn’t happen then what do we hope for next???
And that’s why since the ‘happy’ thing didn’t happen today… I guess all I can do is to sleep and hope that tomorrow will be a ‘happy’ day…
Malacca Trip 2008
I managed to go to Malacca during the Christmas holidays… Went on Christmas morning and back at night the next day… Quite a short trip but still a trip is a trip…
So gotta enjoy it 
Anyway… It was only me and CharYong visiting Mitsuki-cyan at Malacca… (Note that I’m not using the phrase Chibi-cyan anymore… Even though she’s still a chibi size… But her looks is really very matured already… Can electrify guys )
Straight after arriving at Malacca after a 2 hours bus ride, the first thing we did… Was to have lunch…
And so Mitsuki brought us to this road side mamak stall… I think its nearby a chinese temple with a book fair…
And we ordered two dishes… The… Mee Rojak and also Mee Rebus…
and
I’m not sure which dish is which though… I just remembered it was the tastiest Mee Rebus and Mee Rojak I had in a very very long time… Absolutely delicious..
It was also spicy too… Making me feel so filled with my sweats dripping off my head… But then… This sort of sensation is the best while eating
And then we went to eat something else… Satay…
~Xiang Ji as in… Nice scent chicken???~
The stall we went to was near Jonkers Walk and honestly speaking the satay wasn’t the best I’d before… But Mitsuki thought differently…
While me and CharYong had just a few… Mitsuki literally cleaned the plate up…
~The satays CharYong had…~
and then
~The satay I had…~
is really incomparable to the ones Mitsuki gobbled up…
~She had twice or three times more the amount we had~
~Mitsuki enjoying her satay~
And we proceeded to Jonkers Walk… To see Malaysia’s largest pineapple tart…
I’m a fan of pineapple tarts but the size of this one really creeps me out…
Instead the ones they were making inside looks a lot better … The pineapples are lining up to get into my mouth
Malacca is also a World Heritage site…
Why??
Because we have uncles singing KTV in restaurants… Surely you don’t see something like this everyday… Just a joke ya:P
~Got pose somemore…~
Apparently you can also join in the KTV session…
But you will have to pay…
We also had one of the best ABC I had in a while… Its in a shop along the walk… Sorry… Didn’t really get down the name…
After the trip to Jonkers, I finally had a chance to see where I was staying at… As much as I would like to stay at Mitsuki cyan’s house… She didn’t allow me to stay a night because she wanted to prevent unwanted incidents she didn’t want a guy over… Haha…
So I ended up checking into Fairway Hotel…
A look at the outside… It really looks quite old…
Inside was still quite acceptable..
The only bad thing I could think about was that….
Mitsuki told them to keep a standard one bed room for me… But when I checked in they mentioned that the standard rooms are full… Come on lar… Whats the point of booking and paying deposit beforehand only to find out that your room has been taken when you arrived… So in the end I had to settle with a room RM10 more expensive… But with a deluxe size bed…
~The bed… And I’m not naked while taking this photo if that’s what you are wondering~
The beds was nice… Comfy and didn’t really had any stains or bad scent… I even spend half a night sleeping without a shirt on (Because it rained and my shirt got too soaked to sleep in…)
~There was also a TV with some Astro channels on it… Not bad… I managed to watch a movie also~
and then there was the bathroom…
~Not shiny and too clean but acceptable… Got hot shower some more…~
Its actually not that bad…
RM60 for a night… For a two-person’s bed…. But since I’m staying alone, I had to make full payment…
After resting quite a bit, we went out for dinner… Makan again…
This time to the famous Malacca satay celup…
It’s really famous ler… People lining up next to your table to make sure you eat after and drink faster and then hope you leave faster so they can sit down and have their turn…
~But we took our time savoring the food~
Later on, while the girls go on a shopping trip by a roadside boutique, I wondered off alone and stumbled upon St Theresa church…
It was really decorated nicely… The only bad thing was that the lights were not fully on and there was no mass… Make me feel a bit emo… Visiting a church on Christmas night on my own…
I didn’t know what I was feeling lar… Just really feeling quite emo at that moment… Christmas time… And me… I guess its usual for me to be sentimental during Christmas season
After the girls finally finish their shopping, Mitsuki bring us to the Portuguese settlement… Which was really crowded with people and decorations during the Christmas season…
The houses are decorated with all sorts of decorations
It would have been a very nice walk down the settlement areas… Except is was really too crowded… Not my way of spending Christmas… And it made me wonder some more… Why do people decorate their houses to such extent during Christmas season… And this is some more the Portuguese settlement… Made me wonder how Christmas seemed to have been commercialize nowadays… What does Christmas mean to each and everyone of us? Is it the decorations…?
And I thought again… About how different celebrating Christmas would be like during the real settlement times back in the 18th century…
And it got me emo some more… I haven’t the slightest idea why I was feeling in such a way…
But it really was crowded… Sort of made me think that the Christmas mood was quite dampened.
The next destination for the night is The Jetty…
The Jetty is a newly opened multi purpose area where family, couples and teenagers could gather at… There were snooker centers, pubs, cyber cafes, clubs etc along the structure which was built leading out to the sea… There was even a small transportation car to bring you from one end to the other… And the other end was where we went… It was a small cafe at the end of the Jetty, and there sitting under the open sky and looking at the lights of the city… I felt really calm and relax.. Every breeze from the sea seems to be blowing my worries and troubles away and I felt I could stay there forever talking with the two friends of mine…
The place is simply… Amazing…
And I felt emo again which listening to the other two talking about what had happened so far after we graduated… It seems that after graduation, times like these are really hard to come by… Maybe that was why I told them I felt that everything happened too fast… Perhaps… I just felt that we all graduated too fast… We should have more time to enjoy our lives as coursemates…
How I wish we got more moments like these…
And we talked at the cafe till about 2am before going back and have a rest…
Mitsuki-cyan have to work the next day so me and CharYong had time to our own to go shopping and do what we wanna do… And this was what I did… Haha…
~I’ma chi-wah-wah~
The shops opened quite late so I really wasted some time doing senseless stuffs… Hahaha…
Nothing much to note about for the rest of the day except that I bought quite a number of CNY shirts and also a book which I was looking for… (Might update about it after I finish it) … Once I’m done with the shopping it got even more boring since we had to wait for Mitsuki to finish working and bring us to makan… So I ended up reading another book at MPH…
The book was called ‘An hour to live, an hour to love’
There was a phrase in the book… If you only have an hour to live and can only make one phone call… Who would you call… and what would you say??… And what are you waiting for???
Perhaps if I really wasn’ t that uncertain I would have already made the call by now…Got me thinking again…
Finally after work… Mitsuki brought us to eat at a baba-nyonya stall called Ole Sayang at Melaka Raya
It looks really old from the outside but the inside is a different story
The shop was pretty much filled halfway through our dinner…
And we had a few dishes…
~This is the Chicalok fried egg… Which taste really quite nice but there wasn’t really anything special about it though~
~And then we had the sambal sotong which was also a normal sights at every other place… It tasted quite ok also…~
~Some belacan’s fried vegetable… Which I ate more since I wanna get rid of my oily diet…~
~And this was the best dish of the night… Its suppose to be Asam Fish… Which we gobbled up once it arrived and leave not even the bones left in the bowl… It had a strong sour taste which really opened up our appetite…Delicious~
And that happened to be our last dinner in Malacca…
After that, Mitsuki bring us to the bus station where we boarded our bus back to KL…
~Really would like to thank this girl for the hospitality she gave us in Malacca~
So I played around with her photos a bit after I got back and walah…
~A nicer photo of you ~
And we have some more black and white photos of the two girls…
~This is Mitsuki… The working lady~
and
~This is CharYong.. The hip-hop girl… Hahaha…~
Will be missing you girls
If lying is a sin, then is lying to yourself wrong?
Something to think about…
How many of you ever been in this situation…? You have the hots for someone… And this particular someone was a friend for quite sometime… But the hots you’re feeling only started… Then, you found out that this particular someone is seeing someone else… And they’ve started dating and all sorts… Now… What will you do??? a) Keep on being close with her, treating her with gifts, making her touched and hope that she’ll change her heart?? or b) Let go and say that you’re doing that because you love her and that you just want her to be happy…
Think about it…
If you choose a)… You may start to be annoying to her and she will see your stubbornness and persistence and anything could happen here… From falling out of friendships or even her changing heart…
and
If you choose b)… There is of course only one ending to this, since you’re backing off… Being noble and the one who ‘love’ you made the sacrifice… What to do… You love her what…
So here’s the catch to those who answered b)… Are you really that noble??? My dear friend, can you look into my eye and say that it’s ok to let go… That you’re really feeling that its fine?? That you won’t feel bad when you see her with him… Can you look me in the eye and say that you can live with the decision that you make??? Can you be honest and say you aren’t lying to yourself and that the decision you made is NOT the decision you want?
So tell me then… What will you do??
Updated: Barely a few hours after updating this post, I listened to a sermon at HFK which was about talents. The parable of the talents go something like this. A master give his servant 5,3 and 1 talent respectively and went away. The servant with 5 talents put his talents to good use and ended up with 5 more talents. The one with 3 did the same and got 3 extra talents. But the servant with 1 talent hid his talent and didn’t earn anything out of it. When the master returned, the servant with 5 talents and 3 talents showed him what they earned and the master said that they proved themself loyal and faithful and entrust them with more things. But the servant with 1 talent got sent off and stripped of his only talent because he was fearful of losing that talent. The parable went on something like this, ‘For the one who has will be given more, and he will have more than enough. But the one who does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.’
So I thought… Everyone has gotten their own talents… Regardless of how bad or terrible they are in something… Perhaps by taking the risk to use this one talent, they will earn something else in return… Take the risk and you might have something even better… So perhaps you can just go after the girl with that one talent of yours… That one goodness you know you have in you… Even though it might have been too late… Cuz only those who risk it will have the chance to gain more… Take the safe path and whatever chance you have will be lost.
So I guess I’ll choose the first choice if it was me…. But still… Just wanna know what you all think…
I’m a sad graduate
I have officially graduated…
~Do I look good?~
And sadly the convo experience wasn’t really a joyful one… (We’ll get to that later)
We went early to the faculty to take some photos before the ceremony begun since we were afraid that I may rain later when we exit the hall…
~Me and MingSoon were the earliest there~
Thanks to Elaine for being there at the foyer to take photos for us… Really thanks a lot to you since out of the 3 juniors I called to come… Only you turned up… Really felt happy… Haha…
~Me and Elaine, my great grandjunior~
The gathering in the foyer was a small one since only a few of us turned up… Around 6 only… So the photo taking session wasn’t really long there since we kept on taking photos with the same person over and over again
~Me and sassy Mitsuki-cyan… Pretty rite??~
~The six of us outside our faculty… Yup… Faculty of Medicine and Health Science, UPM~
After that short bit of photo taking session, we finally move onwards to the hall for the ceremony… The ceremony was only interesting until you go on stage and taken the ‘scroll’… Then all you can do is wait and watch other people take their ‘scrolls’…
It was about 5pm when the ceremony ended and we exit the hall…
~We are finally graduates…~
~Us and our scrolls~
~Tina was very pretty also that day~
~Olivia came as well… Honestly… I’m very happy that she was able to come .. Thanks for remembering ya…~
~ChangPing, RiWen, KaiLeng and me~
~Labmate/ DotA player Darren came as well~
~Thanks to all seniors for coming as well…~
~And this was one of the last photos I took before the sad incident happen…~
Ok… How to begin…
Half an hour after we got out, my parents wanted to take the family photo which they had been pestering me all week to take… And I was very reluctant to go and take at the time cuz I know that I will be missing out on a lot of things if I leave now. I even said straight to their face a firm ‘No!’… But they insisted and sadly (and how much I actually regretted now) I went… The studio was just nearby, behind the hall… How I wished I actually stand firm with my decision and not go… Why??
Well… 20 minutes after that, the family photo was taken… I came out, admist multiple phone calls from friends asking where I was… And I saw it was raining… I move through the crowd… Looking for my coursemates but only managed to see some far off… Moving towards the parking lot… Some whom I had wanted to take photo with had already left while the rain got harder by each moment… Even Fiona, Iris, Joseph and family whom had came to see me (and called me multiple times) had also left… Its like because of my weakness to turn something down from my family (and I’m also very angry at them)… I missed out on being with those whom I wanted to be with…
I grow up in a family who likes to control what I do most of the time…A family whom for the past three years had only seen me few times… A family who won’t even practice hugging each other… vs A family of coursemates and CSSUPM, whom I grown to like and love being around… Whom taught me how to be close to others… How to hug others regardless of where we are at… A family whom had taken care of me these 3 years, a family whom had listened to me when I have problems and when I’m in difficulties… And I chose the former over the latter that day… Now I really feel regretful for that decision… Because on the day that I should have been happy… I felt sad instead… Being dragged to somewhere I didn’t like… And in the end, lost the chance to be with the ones who truly mattered.
On the bright side (Though that day would have been bright the whole time if it wasn’t for the above incident…), I managed to meet up with Cindy and KaeChing who came from UKM to see me… Very touched as well… Thanks
~KaeChing, WeeWee, Me and Cindy~
~Managed to take this photo with Natalia before she left~
~The remaining few coursemates that was still there when I came out of the studio~
Fast forward to the next day… HweiYee messaged me to ask me whether I have the group photos with everyone throwing their mortar board… And it dawned on me that I will never have the chance to take that photo with my coursemates… It was truly heartbreaking…
~Something I will never have the joy of experiencing with my coursemates… Damn…~
Felt that I missed something which will only happen once in a lifetime… And I’m really jealous for those who are in the photo… Can’t believe that I was so stupid…
