Friends or responsibility…
I came upon this situation several times before this…
Its Saturday… And my friends and I planned to go out… We went to enjoy… Sing K and watch movie… And soon it was 4pm… And they still wanted to enjoy… But… I’ll have to go for mass at chapel… And so I’d say goodbye and went off on my own… to go to the mass…
Now… During the part when we say goodbyes… I found it hard to leave… I wanted to follow them to enjoy again… And its hard to turn your back and go to mass…
I’m also tempted by so many things… It made me understand about those who didn’t went for mass in the end becoz they went out to enjoy… Its so tempting…
And thus… I turn my back… Feeling kinda low… And made my way for mass… (I shouldn’t be feeling like this thou)
DEDICATION – KMSin aka Mitsuki Chibi cyan~~
~This post is dedicated to Mitsuki chibi cyan~
Viva is over… And among all of us, there is one person who should be happy the most…
~This is the girl who is the happiest… She really does look Japanese right???~
Why is she the happiest girl? Because she should be glad that the whole Final Year Project and Viva is all over (exception for thesis writing)…
Why is she SO glad that its over?
BECAUSE she was the one who start training before anyone else, spent most of her days in labs from 8am -5am… Sometimes even staying up till night… To finish her work… She was the one who kept doing her project… Till a week before the Viva presentation when everyone else finished… She was the one who keep doing… Trying to get better results… Repeating tests after tests…
She had to do not only her own work but also others work as well… And was blamed when others didn’t get the results… OMG… How can it be like that right???
~She is the one who made my hair like this~ –> LINK
She is the one who didn’t wanna lose to another person in her lab… She is the one who wanted to show that she is the better one… Because she was the one who tried her hardest in that lab
~It seems that she is also thinking about her lab during the recent annual dinner~
And she is the one who broke into tears one day in front of her lab… heartbroken and discouraged… So much so till I felt the need to give her a hug… (Which was done by someone else… Not me… 
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And sadly… She was the one who changed the most during the project period… She was the one who used to be cheerful but the whole project made her seem so gloomy…
~Her gloomy face~
She was someone who tried hard… Sticking to her own principles… Doing what she thinks is right… She was the one who passed up a blank piece of quiz paper because she didn’t know how to do it even though she had studied beforehand… While others (me included) resorted to more… dirty means of answering… She was the one who won’t change the results she obtained and went ahead to report all truths in her project… While some minor others (not me) resort to other means to get better results.
She is someone whom I believe have the spirit to do her research to the best… But she was the one who lost that spirit throughout the year because of the hardships she faced. She was the one whom I thought will be able to continue her studies after graduate… And she also lost all intentions for that after her project.
She was the one who had to face one of the more ‘famous’ judge during the Viva (famous for shooting head shots), and she was the one who managed to answer (if not all), most of the questions forwarded to her. And we are the one who came to support her…
~Presenting her Viva~
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~Her Viva presentation… Trying to answer the question~
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~Her supporters~
But, she was the one who triumphed through all… She is the one who pulled through against all the odds stacked against her… She was the one who made it, even if she had to crawl to the finish line…
~The happy smile when its over~
In the end, she was the one who was praised by her supervisor for all her hard hard work…
And I believe she learned how strong friendships can be when you are stress out and feeling discouraged…
Honestly… I’m happy that things in the lab are over for her… We don’t wanna see that smiling face turn into the gloomy face right…? Haha
Anyway… Some friends have dedicated their wishes to you 
Dear MeiSin Jiejie
Finally you’ve completed your Final Year Project, after putting in so much effort. I’m definitely happy to see you gone through things well. Obstacles are meant to make us grow.. don’t you think so? Hehe!
Get well soon yeah girl. See u soon my dear housemate! Take care.
Lots of love from your TyanTyan.
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A testimonial from Syin
On the day of ‘lucky draw, she was unhappy for what she got, and surprised us by choosing the extraordinary supervisor, which is not listed by the coordinator of BMS4999. Thereafter, she had a hectic life in the lab. Have meetings with her lab members, reading journals, its all about her FYP…She started her lab earlier than anyone of us.
Dr. J’s lab…It seemed to have everything that I need during my FYP…-80 freezer, ELISA reader (which works faster), and many more… which I think it so lucky of her being able to use the facilities in the biochem lab. And the Dr was there to supervise them. Everything was so much of what I hope of if I was progressing with FYP. Nevertheless, hardly students would go into the lab to ask for help. Wonder why?
Found out soon after that. There is always talks of disappointment, problems in between the lab members, problems to assign turns to subculture, sometimes lack of guidance from her seniors, and whatmore, she has to contribute to the work of two…unbelievable… what kind of lab is this?!
Despite the fact that there were really problems here and there, she did progress her FYP with great passion, with never-ending repeats for MTT for a start, until the mistake was revealed. I always saw her in lab, when I take my ‘subjects’ (her subjects is rats -Alan) to travel up and down. She was always focused that she never know whoever passed by. There were a few times, I would hop in to disturb a bit and if there is anything for me to help her, I would be most willing to. However, sometimes I know nothing about techniques that she need,
Now that I have finished mine, but still she has to carry on until her supervisor allows to put a fullstop to her labwork. I was so happy to wait for the last lab to end…Its quite unimaginable if my supervisor don’t allow me to stop. I might go crazy
It was very motivating that she had started FYP with a big dream. Things went wrong along the way, but that’s how the learning pathway has formed. Uncountable energy, and time that she had to spend during this FYP, would provide a clearer view of how she can plan her future to be. It was a very memorable time we have been together with her, sharing bits and bits of her life in her lab with us. Our ears are always there to listen : ) – Sook Yin-
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Finally, your assiduous win a reputation in the lab. Gambateh!!! -Annie-
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Wish you all the best and do recover soon from your illness -KhangWei-
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Congratulations and well done. You have been tough. We are proud of you. All the best
-Christine-
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Gambateh. You are the best!! Ni zhi dao ma?? -MunYee-
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Lovely roomie,
Congratulations!
Finally you’ve finished doing your FYP.
You did a good job
Keep in touch after graduating ya : )
Your lovely roomie, CTeng. (I added the lovely here ya – Alan)
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Congratulations!!! Keep it up chibi cyan
Viva Voce
There is 2 hours left before the Viva presentation… I’m feeling both happy and nervous… The former because after this it will mean that I’ve overcome my last big hurdle for the FYP… The latter because of the questions they might ask… Preparation wise… I do think I know what I am doing… Lets just hope I know how to answer what they will be asking~~
The joy and sorrows of thesis writing…
For those who had been wondering… I’m not on hiatus yet… The only thing I’m on at the moment is on thesis writing.
And there are its joys and sorrows to it…
Joyful part… When you write it up… Finishing most of it…
Sorrowful part… When the lecturer tells you to correct it because she don’t understand what’s it about.
and so…
Joyful part: I managed to correct (more like rewriting it… something 20 pages turned into 30 pages) and pass it to her again… Thinking I must have done better this time.
Sorrowful part: She call you up and ask you to do corrections again… And cuz this time is 10 pages more… There are even more pages to correct… :sweat: And worst off when you see a whole page of what you type being crossed off just like that… But then I do agree with her once she explained what was wrong… Esp that my writing is confusing and what I’m writing is sometimes unrelated to the study… I guess not writing reports for too long turn me into someone incapable of writing formal text…
and so…
What I’m doing now…
~Of course I can’t tahan doing thesis only… Chatting in the meantime…~
I’ve submitted half of the 3rd draft for my thesis… Removing a lot of unnecessary things and rephrasing a lot more… Hope she’ll accept it this time…
Will be caught up with stuff until next week. But will update when I found some holes… So far.. Only thing to worry about next week is Viva and my last paper…
I got the session I want for Viva… One of the first ones on the first session on the first day (So I’m the first to be free as well)… Let just hope that I could prepare everything well before then… ~Amen~
Thoughts of mine~~
Recently I’ve been thinking a lot again… Now normally when Alan thinks a lot its still fine… But when he overdoes it… Then it might be a problem… Haha~~
Anyway… What I was thinking about is more towards CSS stuff.. Just in case you haven’t know… CSS means Catholic Students Society
1st off..
Catholic students nowadays… (in my campus lar) are very very… passive… They really seldom act on their own to volunteer for something… But rather they like to be asked to do something before they do it… This is really a sad thing… Why??? Well… You’ll notice it when you found that no one wants to do the readings during mass even after you try to persuade them to… And in the end… Who did it?? Me~~ Haiz… Not that I don’t want to do it… But still… Some new faces once in a while will be nice… Rather than seeing Mr Alan’s face up there all the time
2ndly…
I’ve been thinking of methods to revive the Friday Gatherings…I was thinking on how Annie Hii used to organized it… Doing crossword puzzles…And I let my mind stray off a little from the last Saturday’s homily and got myself thinking of discussion, table talks, even stimboat during that gathering time… I mean a lot can be done… But sadly… Why aren’t there others who are thinking of something to be done about it… Is it only me who thinks and try to do it… (But that might also mean me trying to do it and then fail to do it and leave it just like that~~Reminiscence of my past year as CSS prez.. But lets hope this don’t repeat itself once more.)
Why aren’t there more proactive people about in the society?
Hmmm… Sometimes I just wish that things would be different
And in the end… what L said in the movie L-CtW should have sounded true (it sounded nice though)~~
No matter how gifted you are, you alone cannot change the world… But thats the wonderful thing about this world. ~L~
I think he was implying that he still couldn’t change the world even though he is gifted but managed to do something about it with Near and Maki in the movie… And why is it beautiful?? Because through the hardships they shared… They bonded even more closer to each other… Then what Fr say once more is true… We don’t like hardships and put it aside… But because of that, we never treasure what we have now… Because we didn’t get it by our own works but rather the works of those who gave it to us… And it is those people who treasure it in the end…
Remembering back… I think it was only me who wanted to ‘change the world’ and tend to do things on my own… And I found out… Its impossible alone…~~
Hmmm.. Maybe you’ll see me staring in a new movie next time called… Alan – Change the CSS -…. Haha~~ Okay… I’m thinking too much again~~
The trend among school / college / university students.
Was quite caught up in many different things lately… Passing up proposal title to Dr, attending annual dinner and works leading up to it, studying for my Japanese oral quiz and the Motox quiz, searching for journals for my own FYP, looking at slides in the labs, editing my previous write up… Its a hectic schedule till I found myself waking up in the library after drifting off to sleep halfway through thinking of the proposal title yesterday afternoon. And the one thing which struck me immediately was that pain in my head… The migraines are back again. This time it seems worst than before… Even halfway through the dinner on Sunday night, I felt pain in my head… This may be just a guess… But I think something might be wrong… I’ll have to go for a checkup soon… Sigh~~
Anyway… The trend among school/college/university students is that when they leave things till the end (which they normally do) or there are too caught up in rushes of things that came their way (lesser issue), they tend to come to a quiz totally unprepared… That was what I went through this morning… That was what more than 90% of the class went through this morning. A miscommunication from some parts left me studying the wrong things… So I stared at the question paper and it stared back at me… We did that quite often throughout the half an hour quiz this morning… I tot I was dead…. until…
The girl who sat in front of me flips her notes open… Sweat… But this is what most of us normally do… N0?
And not to mention the girl is one of the girl I’ll least expect to flip open her notes… -.-”’
And elsewhere in the room… similar things started happening… whispers first suddenly became louder discussion… So much till the Dr in the end turned the no notes, no discussion quiz into a discussion based quiz (but still no notes)… But we still look at the notes nevertheless… What to do… We are unprepared… Sien..
When it all started, it looked something like this…
~The notes are beside the question… With occasional glances at the notes by the student~
And in the end… It turned into this
~Photocopying for free~
But what would you have done in that case…? Will you hold your head up and continue being the you who might most probably get the lowest in class… Or you join in the group as well?? What would you do? Luckily this is only a 5% quiz at which is used to fulfill the 40% non-examination criteria which we have.
CSSUPM Annual Dinner – Prologue
Was quite enjoyable, aside from what I’ll complain below as well as the frequent pains of headache I got that night.. Even so, I managed to drain one pair of batteries and leave another pair half drain… Thats the amount of energy that got used by my camera that night.
Erm let me just start with the preparations till the dinner…
A few things I would like to note out beforehand…
1. I was only in charge of publicity… You know… Spreading the news and stuff…
2. One of the meetings of the committee was scheduled by the director at 6pm on Friday
~The road I take to get to chapel… If the blue rubbish bin, the red AWAS sign and the UPM board is not there… Then it would have looked like a scene from a Korean drama )
3. The final years were suppose to take photos together after the whole dinner
and what happened…
1. I got pulled into helping out with the collection of payment from the members, almost got into the preparation of slides (Thanks Gary for taking over), almost got pulled into becoming emcee, got asked to join in MSG dance and got involved with making sure how many people are coming, who are coming, who has paid, who needs transport etc… Where did my publicity go…? Are you going to publicize me or publicize the dinner? And people started to ask me about how many VIPs are coming… And which VIPs has paid… Which I totally have no idea on since… I wasn’t handling the VIP part.
2. The meeting in the end started at 8pm because the director was late as she went to Mines to buy stuff for the lucky draw… Pls lar… You scheduled at 6pm… Then make sure you are back at 6pm or 6.30pm.. Why at 8pm?? Not that you dont have transport also… You were driving that day… Then why 2 hours… I looked at those who were tight scheduled who came at 6pm and waited for an hour for you to arrived but in the end had to go at 7pm cuz they had other obligations to attend to… I even dragged myself from the faculty in the small drizzle without dinner a little off 6pm… And what did I get… 2 hours of waiting for someone to shop and then only managed to get my dinner at 11.30pm with migraine throughout the way… Haiz.. Dont let this happen again lar…~~
~The pictures don’t look so nice right??… I am still ain’t too sure how to take photos of a bright background with a distance focus~
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~”Cherry” blossoms in front of the chapel~
3. Well… you wont see me in the photos together with the final years because I was handling the payment… Is it just me being unable to be in the picture and choosing to settle the payment before going into the picture or is it just me being crazy as not to go into the pictures… The amount which Ms Director said and the amount in the receipt was not exact… So I tried calling out for Ms Director to come instead… Which she finally did after the whole photo session with the final years were over. What to do now?? Sigh… I want a photo and I won’t be in that one now…Ish… Geram
Lets just say that I think I’m doing small sacrifices here and there for the benefits of those who were suppose to celebrate the final years graduating… (which includes me as well…) Sigh…
Somehow this made me feel in contrast towards the things that Fiona has said before this… That sacrifices are acts of love… And are suppose to be beautiful… But I can’t see the beauty of it…
~Acts of love?~
