~minors n’ MAJORS~

These few days got some things happening to me for the first time. On the good side, I was able to drive in UPM:P Drove to Mardi to pick up something for my FYP. Even though its near but still enjoy it:P Another first time will be my cosup praising me:P Good job, Alan. OMG. Now have to work harder again. On the down side, couldn’t start treatment cuz item used not compatible. Now thats a first time too. Haiz.

Dear Alan,

I know you’ve been stress out lately becoz of your Final Year Project, the Chapel’s Paintjob and losing your heart in CSSUPM. I know that you are feeling very lost and down at times, esp after ppl left you behind after the Graduation mass a few months ago and how you felt that you were the only one who cared about Rory when she came over the UPM to see Cibol’s graduation. I know that these incidents have made you questioned whether you shud continue to journey with others for CSSUPM. I understand that you have tried hard to keep doing what you tot was best even though there are those who didnt seem to appreciated it. I know that becoz of all these you have lost heart in many things related to CSSUPM and even lose your heart to go for mass or even to pray.  I also understand the laziness that you have adopted and how it is affecting a lot of the obligations that you are suppose to be doing esp your final year project as well as you’re failing attempts to rid yourself of the laziness. I know that not everything I say atm will seem true for many others. And that what I say maybe too much for some to accept as well.

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But I really want you to understand that you shouldnt be going down this path. Many ppl needs you and you have to continue to strive. For those around you. For God and for CSSUPM. You shud understand that there are surely those who appreciates you and that you shud treasure they appreciation and continue to do your best. You shud also know that your co-supervisor do have a lot of hope on you to do her project and that you shud also try your hardest on it as not to fail to meet up with her expectations. I know that you felt lonely at times or even stress out but do remember that God is always with you. Even though the times you went for mass seems to be lesser and lesser, I hope that you will remember that God loves everyone, even those who wander away from Him and refuses to try to come back. I hope that you remember He will always open up his arms to you to welcome you home. Don’t give up Alan, not until the very end. Strive to do your best. Don’t keep yourself to the corner anymore but reach out. Reach out to others to help you out. Noone can stand alone in this world. And you shud know that there are others out there who will give you a hand to pull you up once you fall down. Treasure this part of them and don’t let them down.

I hope that you could take my advices into considerations and to continue to live a fruitful and happy life. I hope you don’t feel too disturbed by the all the bad points I have written up there but rather accept your weakness and face it. I hope that I can see you stand up again, even taller than before and smile a sincere smile to all around you.

And with that, I wish you a Merry Christmas and a joyous one as well. Do remember to continue to pray for help and guidance from the one who watches over all of us. God bless you always.

Love,

-Alan-

~~To give or not to give ~~

Today is Shuk Teng’s birthday and I was thinking of giving her and the other PKK girls who were celebrating her birthday with her presents and christmas cards. Why did I thought of giving?? Because its Christmas mar… And its her birthday and I’m crazy for doing stuff like this… But dont mind… I just give only lor.. But why not to give?? Its because everything was last minute de… The present was bought after the party and the cards are all like vegetable od… Ruffled that much… Got feel a little paiseh if wanna give. But I just give only lor. Hope they do like it… I remember receiving surprise gifts always makes me happy… Even if the gift are insignificant, I still feel happy for receiving something… Cuz I felt remembered that way Anyway… I do hope they are happy as well.. Merry Xmas to you all

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~~ The Challenge ~~

On the way back from the party, I thought of something… In the European countries and even if U.S.. There are ppl who are so nice as to wish anyone Merry Christmas as they see them… So I thought why dont we do that in Malaysia as well? I mean if ppl were to say Merry Christmas to each other regardless of race… I think relationships will become better… So I tried to do that… Wishing a complete stranger Merry Xmas… Hence thats the challenge~~~

Attempt No 1: I went into the Sri Serdang 7-11 shop… Bought a carton of juice and went to paid it with the intention of wishing the cashier a Merry Christmas~~ The casher was an old Malay lady who seemed to be MC2 (mon cha cha)… And the words got stuck in my throat…:P Failed

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Attempt No 2: Went into 9+9 shop at Old flat here after the 7-11 incident… Saw the cashier there was the Chinese guy who rarely smile and was like all the time… I got scared and walk off after paying… Mission failed again

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Attempt No 3: Went to the Juice Shop next to 9+9. Ask for an apple juice to go… The Malay auntie there was kinda busy but this time I felt that I really wanted to say it… So after I paid, I muttered out a Merry Xmas kak… And…… I didnt think she heard it also… :Sweat:  Walked off again… Did she hear it?? I dunno…

Mission status unknown

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I gave up and went home… Noticing that its so hard 2 say this 2 words to complete strangers… Sigh… Anyway… Typing it out is way easier… Merry Xmas everybody Wish you all have a joyous day tomorrow

These couple of days have been busy, fun, very painstaking as well as tiring for me… Why?? In addition to settling stuff for the chapel paintjob, I have went to more shopping complexes in this one week compare to the amount of different complexes I visited last year…

The National treasure Pavilion trip

I went to Pavilion for the first time last Thursday to catch the movie National Treasure Book of Secrets which I really recommend it to everyone who likes adventure stories. And even though I’m still missing the spirit of Christmas, it doesnt dampen my mood to take pictures of the sceneries there.

The giant christmas tree and the walkway of people sitting down looking at it was really a refreshing new sight to me as oppose to what other malls may do my having ppl stand and admire the decorations, Pavilion has places for the ppl to sit and rest and to enjoy the decor and the music played.

The problem with this photo is definitely the lighting… But still Christy’s imoto looks great in there.

Another pleasent surprise for us is the Christmas special music show which happen to take place when we were there.

The musical was absolutely fantastic. I loved it.. Its too bad I didnt record it down… And youtube.com doesnt seem to have it either… Anyway, if anyone is going to Pavilion anything be4 Christmas, do spend some time to watch the show. You wont regret it.

Christy once more in Starhill with Snowflakes falling down behind her… Yup… Its snowing indoors… How cool is that rite?

The decorations in Sg Wang aint too bad either

However walking thru all these malls cause be a great thing last Thursday. I didnt know that there ain’t going to be bus at 10pm… So waited and waited… In the end have to take taxi home from Times Square…$$ fly and my heart cries… Oh well~~~

And apparently someone was mad at me… I dunno why… Ask her… And start accusing me of many things I didnt know I was capable of…Sigh~~ Why things become like this? .. Now its like icy feeling only…

Enuff about that tho… I came across something when I was doing my lab

DON’T TOUCH YA DR ROSLIDA. That means I can touch it rite?? Haha:P

Crazy ice skating trip to Sunway

Just came back from a long trip to Sunway Pyramid earlier today with 4 other individuals. Lets see who they are and what they are doing there.

Yup… They are their to ice skate. The contenders are OKW, KMS, Annie and Blackie. Lets see how they fare for today

Estimated time in rink: A few seconds

Every starting in the rink is thru small steps by holding onto the side of the rink. Our contenders are doing so from the start. And eventually Blackie found out that taking one big step taken will cause him his first fall of the day (Unfortunately the only media on this is a video in KMS camera)

Est time: A few minutes later

But eventually they will have to leave the safety of the sides and venture into open ice. Here we see the guys being relunctant to part from the safety grips on the sides and Annie has to persuade them to move.

They look in horror as they see more and more ppl approaching where they are standing at. Annie calls out to KMS to help her by bringing the guys out from their safety zone

Blackie volunteer to go with Annie first with OKW and KMS following behind

Blackie and Annie move steadily across the open ice. Blackie and Annie seems to be having an intimate moment holding hands like that

While behind them KMS and OKW took a big fall… Whose fault was it?? We’ll never know…

Est time: After one round around the rink

OKW decided retired early after the initial fall, going back into the box

The rest tried to persuade OKW to enter the rink once more.

And relunctantly he entered again. And all of them go in pairs again. KMS with Blackie this time and OKW with Annie. Moving next to each other. One pair in front and one pair behind. But a few moments later…

The two pairs are this far apart from each other… Oh no… Plus KMS and Blackie were seen to be hugging each other… Oh No (Video is with KMS)

Est time: One hour plus later

You can only see these two left on the rink… Where are the guys???

OMG!!! Lolz~~~ They retired from ice skating forever…

Anyway… The Christmas decorations in Sunway is also quite merry…

We even have the chance to watch a live performance with cartoons from the Cartoon Network performing on stage:

Regardless of being tired… The trip was a smashingly enjoyable one !!!~~~

Christmas spirit. Thats what I’m missing. 3 days left and I can’t feel joyful or happy for it at all. Haiz. Another thing I’d lost would be the heart to keep doing certain things. Where did my heart go to? And why do ppl like to bring up all sorts of accusations when they are angry? There no use to be angry at someone cuz he is not perfect. And all of the sudden relationships are severed just like that. Haiz. So many problems:-(

Lately I’ve been running everywhere to settle the items for chapel paint and fixing. Its hard enough for me to go into fac and do my project everyday by bus and its even damn harder for me to wait for bus and go to fac and then take another bus down to office to settle the stuff and then take bus up fac again to continue my lab. Sien. Waiting for bus during holiday in UPM is like watching a 1 hour show. It only comes at the end. Sien.

Been to lots of places lately. Watched a lot of movies as well. And I have lots of pictures to help tell the story…

Berjaya Times Square

Went with Christy and her little imoto (sister) and Cames (new friend) and his imoto just to watch Golden Compass (~for time x2 :p) .The movie was how I tot it was the 1st time I got it… And watching it a 2nd time doesnt change my opinion on it… Biggest upset to it will be the lack of a true and final ending for the story… Sigh… Anyway since its christmas time, the place is decorated with all sorts of decorations you’ll never see in Labuan

Christy looks a little more refreshing with her curls now

Christmas trees all over the place

There is even a barbie display with all sorts of barbies in wedding gowns…

There is also a Comic Fest there… Too bad I wasnt able to enter it… Sigh… A lot cosplayers around also.. The first I met that day was Lavi from D.Grayman… More or less putting my anime knowledge to the test. Also seen Elric Edward from Full Metal Alchemist… Sigh~~ Unfortunately didnt take any photos of them…

Christy imoto taken at gasoline

Midvalley Megamall

Went the day after the trip to Berjaya TS… This time to watch a second movie ”I am legend” which I still dont understand what its trying to say… Kinda disappointing… Going to a movie without understanding whats its about rite?? Sigh~~ Anyway this trip was with Shirley and C1 ~~ 2 leng lui Haha~~ The place is also filled with decorations of all sorts

Christmas tree here looks a lot better than the one in Berjaya TS

Shirley as a reindeer

Shirley as a ~~dog~~ but really looks like tat what:P

Beautiful rite?? Haha.. I dont mean the girls, I meant the background

Blurry me becomes even blurer in this photo taken by Shirley… Why you take photo sooo blur deeee??

Another nice background:P

A balloon reindeer.. First time for me to see this… It actually floats on the ground

The 2 girls again… And the decorations are actually butterflies

They went into mushroom world in SuperMario

Nicest picture all day…Haha… Without Shirley in it:P

And thats all with regards to my trip last weekend… Tiring but fun:P

Even though with the decorations all over the place, I still cant help feeling the spirit of christmas… I dont feel the joy of this year’s Christmas… How come~~~ Can anyone bring back the feeling of Christmas to me?

FYP~~~

Its been more less weeks of waiting for my kids to reach 200g or so but treatment will begin on the 24th.. Christmas eve.. Haha… And I’ll have to be in the lab also on the 25th as well as on 1st January… There goes my holidays Sad cases at the guinea pigs part where the last of them died due to unknown causes…And they are soo cute..~~ Sigh~~

I actually felt a little jealous over everyone else project even thou some are also in trouble with their treatment… But at least they are doing something and they are learning loads… But I’m just static atm and feeding rats… Omg~~ I started to wonder whether I shud have changed another supervisor when I had the chance to do it…

In addition to that, my co-sup seems to have place high hopes on me or something becoz the current study will be added into a conference or something next April… OMG… So if I fail to obtain the good results that will mean that I failed her chances to submit the study into the conference… Sigh… So it’ll mean that this is a project that cannot fail… or rather must not fail… A do-or-die project… Sigh… So much pressure…Haiz…

Just in case I forgot… Wish all who read this a Merry Christmas… And hope mine is merry as well… :p

Finally a great big thing happen as I was checking up on the kids yesterday morning. Saw one like this:

I was soo sad you know… Haiz…So fast one got sick and couldnt get up on its feet. I think its the one who used to run chasing its tail… Sigh… In the end, I had to put it to sleep. It couldnt walk, couldnt stand and couldnt even move properly. And to ease the pain, I did it. Sigh. Now left 49. Really hope nothing else happen to them. rays:

Well… I’m now the owner of 50 very naughty kids. Most who like to fight and won’t stay quiet and guai guai de to me. Haha… Do you wanna know them??

And they are white Anyway… They are cute in their own ways… I’ve seen one trying to chase its tail and running round and round until it got dizzy (Maybe its a symptom for something but lets hope its not)

And in a nearby cage I saw this… Cute ler ~~~ Too bad they are not mine

Anyway problems and problems arises once more… Guess maybe cuz of my laziness and last minute attitude that got me kena tegur by my supervisor today…Sigh~~~ Hate the attitude of mine… Wanna be better but never seem to be able to change this habit. Haiz… And in the end everyone will have to rush… Even those who didnt have to rush in the beginning. Damn… Wanna changeeeeeeeee

Maybe because of that, I sorta have an unsettling heart now… You know… Sometimes stuff happens that you dont want to happen and you can just feel the discomfort in your chest… Thats what I’m feeling now… Sigh~~~ And ended up with me listening to ~Angel~ by Westlife… And hope I can find some comfort in the end…