~minors n’ MAJORS~

Hmmm I really dont like looking at photos sometimes… They remind me of stuff I sometimes rather choose not to be reminded upon… I should have seen some of the pics that I have seen a few minutes ago… Now I am all…bu suang od… Ai… Don’t talk about those photos lar…

Anyway did a really…erm… I-dunno-how-to-describe-de-thing…Well.. Went to MidV ma… and then on the way back on the KTM, I was sitting close to this secondary school girl… Hmmm… She was sitting in front of me… And wow… Leng lui really… But what amazes me is this lor… Throughout the whole journey back to Serdang, she was sitting there and doing her revision book for SPM… Really admire her hardworking attitute… So much that before leaving I let her read a message that I typed out on my phone… Dunno why but I don’t feel like saying it out to her… Well it read ‘Good luck for your SPM! Do your best!’ and after reading it she smiled… Lol…Haha… And that was when I got off… But it was a little weird lo… Cuz she got off at Serdang also… And after showing her that message I just left just like that also… Even know she was just waiting for the crowd to move behind me… Hmmm.. Maybe that was the flaw of today’s action… I tot she wasn’t going to stop at Serdang… But she did… And come to think of it… I guess she should be staying somewhere in the housing lot near SCity since she walk across the bridge to the housing area… Somehow I felt mixed emotions after what I did… Well because… I was happy cuz I wished someone good luck… But I feel like I ignored her after letting her see the message… See how lar… If got chance sure will see her again de… And maybe that time will talk… Haha… Anyway… Dunno why lar… But doing these stuff make me happy… Although throughout the journey I was thinking like… Should I do it or not… But now come to think of it… I am glad I did… I just wished someone I didn’t know Good luck for their exams… Is that wacko? But I really glad I did it.. Lol… Thats my style I guess.. Lol… Wonders when I ‘ll see her again… If got sure wanna be frens… Lol… Don’t think elsethings… Just friends… Lol… I guess I see in her the lack of hardworkingness that I never had… Hopes she’ll pass with flying colours… Or perhaps… Do a lot better than passing…. Good luck…!!!

Compatible… Is there really something that builds it…? I mean… Can you make yourself compatible with someone or it comes naturally… I mean… Well… There are people that you can talk a lot with… And there are people whom you couldn’t find anything to talk about… Hence… Is that call compatible? I can be compatible with anyone… Can’t I? I mean there are times when I can just chat like crazy with someone… And there are times which I strive like crazy just to find a topic to chat about… Especially towards some people… Well… It was nice last time… Anything could be said… Now… I felt that… Sometimes there’s nothing left to be said… I mean… Is compatible really all about talking…? Or its just natural… There are some people who you just can’t fit with… No matter how you try… Is life like that?… Then… If its not compatible… What can you do?…

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Just some stuff on my mind…

Where’d you go? I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone.
Where’d you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it’s been forever,
That you’ve been gone,
Please come back home…

Its been eight months since it started… But I really think that hope’s lost for this… It all crumbled three months ago… Sigh… The song above maybe reflects on how I feel I guess.. Thanks to MeiXin for the song… Guessed I been habouring false hopes ever since I knew what happened during the holidays… And the hopes were just never meant to be? But I can’t surpress the want to be hopeful… Hopeful that something might change… But it won’t I guess… That’s the harsh reality of it… That’s what hard to accept… (Sad)

I feel that I am being tested for the past few months… The tests that did happen include…

-The test of PATIENCE

-The test of NOT BEING ANGRY

-The test of TRYING TO BE MYSELF

-The test of NOT BEING JEALOUS

-The test of LOVING SOMEONE

-The test of WAITING

-The test of SELF CONTROL

-The test of STAYING STRONG… etc…

And I am sad to say that I failed most of the tests stated above… And those are the stuff that make things complicated I guess… I know now what I want to do… And I will still go all out into accomplishing it… Even if there seems to be no possible changes in whats happening… I will still do it… Never give up… I guess… Its back to being patience again… Like old times… Lol… Just hope I got the will to stay strong… And keep smiling always… God has His own ways of doing things… He sets up everything for us… But He does give us the freedom to choose… It might not be His will for me to do this… But this is what I choose… Cuz thats what I feel I should do… Cuz thats what I know I should do… Lol… So guess its N/A now… :p

*Edit* 06/09/2006